December 2008
46 posts
Visitation hours are over
So greg came into my work today and we chatted for a bit. Just a simple chat, then he says that he thought he’d let me know that he’s kinda seeing someone back at X. I told him I was happy to hear that he found someone and he kinda mumbled something like ya not really. I’m not sure. I think he only said that cause its nothing serious at all but who knows what grows.
Anyways...
Bedtime story
Mum comes to kiss my forehead goodnight. I think to myself oh shit she’s going to smell me. She does and asks if I’ve been with smokers, I say its the girls from work.
She says alright and leaves
Reflection
Came home to see a wierd reflection in the window of a tv, only to think, wait why havent I seen that before? Walk into the tv room to see my parents watching our NEW HD TV AND BLUE RAY DVD PLAYER!!!
They went out and bought one today and watched Rome alll night. Went to laurens, just came home around 12:30, locked out of my house when I said DONT LOCK ME OUT OF MY HOUSE.
They were still...
uh ohhh
So I accidentaly started smoking. Oops. And I accidentally still am. Oops.
Its turned into me smoking when i drive- oh the fun! and working of course. These are stressful times I say.
Boys didnt want us over tonight- but yet I got a text from greg saying he didnt have a problem with us coming over and i was like whoa what where did this come from!
My only night off to drink and I couldnt. oh...
Go out , drink, have a good time, cry
Had a GREAT cry yesterday, I blame alcohol though. And boys
Got to see everyone I went to school with, I actually had a lot of fun. Just talking and seeing what everyone is up to.
Saw this guy I went to school with at the gym today also. He was looking good. I told him he looked…older haha
“ Don’t worry your face is pretty”
Fright
For some reason I’m nervous for my surgery and I don’t like that.
Why?
Well for the one reason that I never get nervous for things, I’m usually quite optimistic so I don’t like how I have a bad feeling about something. That’s not a good sign. I don’t want someone to comfort me and say “it’s alright” I just want them to know my fear. Know...
“listen to that, it’s the wind chime of retail”
double fuck
What a shit ass day. My day at work was horrible.Horrible. I want a boy, I hate my body and it hit me today while at work where i have to be happy. But I wasn’t happy.
After work go to robs reunion thinger. There I see everyone I went to school with, see Greg, he hugs me. Of course he’s completely shit faced though. Apparently he asked Lauren where I was.
Got in the car. Huge...
FUCKKKKKKKKKK
Its after my christmas party. Fun time…for everyone else i hope…
as much as i enjoyed myself it was all couples.Couple Couples Couples, oh and my ex….
I don’t even know what happened tonight. Nothing. i had no time for interacting and hardly did with him. I want to cry but i cant . I already tried
ah. period
One more day! well technically today
and my christmas party will commence
spent all day cooking and cleaning like a house wife
im afraid i wont look good for he who must not be named tomorrow. im excited!
I need to reply to that email. Either or I should just leave it but thats not like me…I think i’ll tell him that i think he’s too old for me
Tristan Girls Rock!
Hey there, How’s the cutest girl in retail? ;) It is Derek. Remember me? We met last Sunday at the Tristan and America store at Bayshore. I was the guy that inquired about how ‘excited’ you looked folding pants! Ring a bell?!
You’re a super cutie and seem like a chill girl. I’d like to learn more about you. Why don’t you drop me a line and we can...
Woo hoo woo hoo hoo
So I’m over three thousand now at work- yay! I hope I make mad chedda on saturday seeing as I have WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY OFF!!! WOOOOOOOOOOo
still going to the GNC to buy energy drinks every day in hopes of meeting a guy. I’ve realized now that one of the guys who works there is actually giving me a discount on my drink…I’m going to have to thank him soon ;) maybe it...
commission
Already im at 2600 hundred this week- around then. If i worked more my commission would be higher but i can get it good above 3000. My first commission last week! wooo
IM NOT PREPARED
My body decided to go in ugly mode this week- the one week its important! fuck im tired, im about to pass out i feel it. this is going to be one hell of a sleep tonight
Whoa fast
Today went by really fast at work- I don’t know why. My parents came to visit which i liked, then my aunt and uncle did as well. Also I went to go buy an energy drink at the health store and it’s always cute boys working there. anyways they didnt have enough change for me so i said don’t worry about it but instead the guy just gave me more money back instead. I want to get to be...
TIMEWARP
WHOA WHOA BACKUP
Listen to my wierd memory.
So today is kyles birthday (an old boyfriend) and i remember this day last year greg and i had one of our first ‘hang outs’ where we went to kyles for this birthday.
A WEEK BEFORE I had my christmas party with the girls since it was the only time I could. That was on saturday the 8th. The night before I went to Chad’s house with the...
Happiness
I go to work… I’m supposed to be happy and optimistic all day there to make other people happy and feel good.
I leave work.
No more cheeriness is left for the rest of my life
wierddd
‘i had the wierdest dream last night. Basically for some strange reason I was with a bunch of people in an odd place and my ex happened to be there also. I was tired at one point so I lay on a bunch of pillows and then he stood over me and fell ontop. He then held my face and started talking to me and kept going closer and closer and I tried to move away but it didn’t work. He was...
5 A.M
I went to bed that late last night…why? Zelda..
Champagne and Chocolate
Last night Em came over and we drank champagne and then ate chocolate it was amazing. I’m hoping I’ll make over 3000 this week. I’m already at 2 600 or something at that was for the first two days of the week and I still have three more days of work this week. Yay to commision!
winter storm outside. It’s cold. I’m lazy. Need to plan party and do presents
One more day!
One more day till I get a day off-woo! And also I watched Titanic tonight.
Best movie ever
that is all
Things to do
Find New years dress
Look good in new years dress
Look good
Find boyfriend
Turn into husband
Make babies and soup
My dayyy
Today was a good day with customers- most of them were fun to help and they all bought big from me. But alas nine and half hours has taken its toll on my feet and i have to wake up in another 5 hours to work 9 hours again. Maybe I’ll set my alarm later..
“I think it was you who helped me over a year ago. Yes it was. You were so...”
“You’ve been so helpful today, i’ll be sure to come by for your help...”
I never understood...
I never understood why people bite their nails down to the bone. However then most of my nail came off and it’s addicting to try and make it feel right to touch things by gnawing on it and it’s just making it worse.
I need an extra coat (nail polish coat that is)
Slap in the face
So I don’t have sunday off, or monday..in fact I only have tuesday and thursday off. that kinda SUCKS BALLS. I will have to speak to chuck about having weekends off or at least one day. Come on I’m young! annddd my feet can’t take it
And I don’t know why but my sales have not been good lately. The people I’m getting just aren’t into clothes or buying at that...
My nights
Tonight I have work, and tomorrow night i have work…and the enxt day I have work. I hope I have sunday off cause the girls and I were planning on going out and I do not enjoy a hung over morning working.
Sleeeep
I need to start going to sleep earlier. I went to bed around 2 i think..or was it 3. and I finally got out of bed around 1:15pm..pathetic. I’m listening to muse… I never thought Id listen to them but something about their music attracts me. It sounds like lustfull secret.
HAHAHAHA →
Feeling of the day: Optimism!
For some strange reason today I felt really happy- even though my feet hurt like a bitch and work was slow and no one wanted to buy anything, I was in a general good mood. Looking back at it, it seems it was because I was happy for my friends. And That makes me even more happier! Yay to happiness!
And another strange reason is I feel like a gal wanting to explore the single territory. I want to...
